Bangle & Me !

The other day Esther asked me “Mummy why don’t you wear bangles ?” I am getting ready for office – without looking at her I say “while working it makes noise – so I don’t wear” Next suggestion – “Just wear one that will not make sound” .. I smile at her and say – well Mummy does not like wearing Bangles .. she says “Bad Mummy” I smile at her and get ready for office … On my way to office I think about her question .. why don’t I wear bangles … why don’t I like jewelry … why I don’t I wear makeup … first answer , I don’t have time for all that … 2nd phizool kharchee … .. 3rd too girly girly things … I was never a girly girly type :D 

Looking back , I never had much interest in things which girls of my age would have --- my mom was known for her style and fashion sense , and I was complete contrast … had (and guess still have) this thing in mind that thought of dress , make up is too feminine and till sometime back for me being feminine meant being weak … most of my friends at school know me for my tom boyishness , at college classmates remember me for someone who wont wear saree on first day of every month when we are suppose to wear saree … too plainly dressed , different from other classmates … :D

I started wearing Saree regularly 14 years back when I started working , and realized it gave me more confidence when I was neatly and smartly dressed in a cotton saree, and for some reason people did take me seriously too .I never had any inclination for jewelry but then I always found stuff which street hawkers sold, inviting never used to wear but started buying stuffs , bargaining and when I felt I am getting good bargain , I bought more .. quite a few things I bought but for long time didn’t wear any of those .. and then 2-3 years back when Esther started asking – “mummy you have so many ear rings but why don’t wear ?” I thought yea I should try .. and realized its ok to be feminine once in a while :) Now whenever I try something new or different I ask Esther – iS this ok ? :)

So this weekend I along with kids went for a long walk, and we did some shopping , on our way back I got into a small shop to buy hair bands for Esther and saw colorful glass bangles .. .. Esther looked at me and said , “I know you will not buy” -- I smiled at her asked the shop keeper how much for the bangles – he said 15 /- I bought 7 bangles all different color .. Sunday I wore 1 to church and Esther went around showing it to her friends “ my mom’s new bangle “ .. 

Now when I think of being feminine and not being weak I think of all the beautiful Durga Idols which we get to see during Durga Puja - and realize Women can be Attractive and audacious too -- Bold and beautiful ! :)